Gloomy
Film Noir-A movie characterized by low-key lighting, a bleak urban setting, and corrupt, cynical characters. The primary moods of classic film noir were melancholy, alienation, bleakness, disillusionment, disenchantment, pessimism, ambiguity, moral corruption, evil, guilt, desperation and paranoia. Film noir films (mostly shot in gloomy grays, blacks and whites) thematically showed the dark and inhumane side of human nature with cynicism and doomed love, and they emphasized the brutal, unhealthy, seamy, shadowy, dark and sadistic sides of the human experience. An oppressive atmosphere of menace, pessimism, anxiety, suspicion that anything can go wrong, dingy realism, futility, fatalism, defeat and entrapment were stylized characteristics of film noir.
When we were not in the environs of CHOP or HUP today we were trapped in this gloomy hospital room. It was a gray misty day and our room overlooks a construction site. I snapped a picture because I thought it would be the perfect setting for a film noir. For a bit of distraction I surfed the web and came up with the above definition. It really mirrors the mood of today.
Christi was not out of pain long and she had the most terrifying trip to radiation therapy. She was forced to be fitted for a radiation “mask”. Picture Hans Solo when he was frozen, only the mask was made of hard mesh. They called me into the room because she was so terrified. The icing on he cake was that the scanner broke down in the middle of the simulation so it was all for naught.
When we finally got back she climbed into bed and was trying to get comfortable, however, her pain today had shifted to her right leg and it was excruciating pain. Fortunately, Drs. Maris and Mosse were there to witness her outburst, however, this led Maris to say that we should get the palliative pain people involved. This is just one more small step away from treating her disease and toward just making her comfortable. Unbelievably sad…
Shayne
posted by the Thomas team @ 8:23 PM
2 Comments:
Some things are all in the perception. We prefer rooms overlooking construction sites! Kendall developed a love of Bob the Builder from watching construction equipment at the hospital. When a crane or scoop would move he would get so excited! You would think a celebrity just walked in. It could keep a 3-year-old entertained for hours.
However, I wish you had sunny skies and rainbows and maybe a nice garden with a fountain. An artist like Christi would be stifled in such gloom. Mabye you can get Childlife to paint her windows. A rainbow with no indigo (it is just a shade afterall) and the solar system .... Pluto and all.
We pray for strenght and beauty for the whole Thomas Team.
Oh my gosh, your view was the exact one we had when my son was at CHOP except we were on the 4th floor and had to look at the rundown building that was formerly in the spot they are building. Even though the view isn't great it is better than looking out in to the atruim at the same thing every day. At least on the street side you have trains, passing traffic and construction to watch. Hoping the weather starts to turn around (just like christi hopefully is) and gets nice and sunny to brighten her room and make her feel better.
Sending sunny thoughts.
-Melissa B
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