Sickening

With today's pain continuing non-stop and new pains now in her head, forehead, and eyes in addition to the "tossing of the cookies" episodes, I emailed Dr. Maris this afternoon. He said to meet him in the Emergency Room. (What a guy! 4:30 on a Saturday night and he meets us at the hospital.) Unfortunately, he didn't share news we wanted him to tell us after he examined her in the ER. He said that the disease taking off is his number one suspect. Oh, kick me when I'm down. Shayne and I both shed plenty of tears in the ER tonight and I did again while snuggled with Christi in her hospital bed where she has been admitted on 3 south. In the ER they gave her much higher doses of morphine that she had been taking and ran some other meds. Sadly, Christi continues to rate her pain as "15" on a scale of 1-10. Shayne said a few times this week it got down to as low as .5, but definitely not today. I wish I could do something to take this pain away from her. Shayla and I are now back in our room at Ronald. We'll be back at the hospital tomorrow about 7:30 as Dr. Maris will examine Christi around 8AM. We look for her to need blood products tomorrow, which was another shock. Her hgb. is now down to 8.6 and her platelets have fallen down to 28. The chemo wasn't to do this; I'm assuming it's the disease. I'm so thankful Shayne didn't feel comfortable driving her home on Friday after he was offered that option. What would we be doing now if he had? Oh, I don't even want to know. Thank you Lord for providing that man with such wisdom and guidance. We'll "try" to get some sleep tonight. This is tough.