Parent Teacher Conferences

One short year ago: Nov. 2005 Conference Night

Oh, my! I never expected tonight to be so difficult. As a parent of Christi's I always loved attending parent-teacher conferences. Now, being at school with conferences going on and watching the parents come and go knowing I won't get to meet with her teacher, is a real kick in the pants. I'm very grateful Shayne and I were able to meet with Shayla's 2nd grade teacher tonight, but oh how I wish we could have met with Christi's beautiful teacher too. I'm trying hard not to complain, but this is tough and I feel like my heart is breaking!

Today was my fifth day back at school and I couldn't stand it any longer. I had to ask our sweet computer tech to please change the screensaver going around on my work computer. Years ago one of my 8th graders set it up for me so I didn't know how to change it. It's all pictures of Christi. While I didn't mind the healthy looking pictures, there were also ones of tough treatment attempts and it was killing me to glance at some of what she so unjustly had to endure knowing Shayne and I had signed the consent forms for every single torture we subjected her to. Thankfully, our sweet tech understood only too well - 15 years ago today her sixth grade son died. I'll never forget her attending our wedding ten days later in November of 1991. During our wedding, I didn't focus on anything that the priest said, but I stared up in the balcony where Theresa sat wondering how in the world she was ever going to get by without her precious son, Andy. I wasn't even a mother yet, but I knew the pain must be horrific. Now I know for myself the true horror. To comfort myself, I imagine Andy & Christi celebrating with Jesus tonight!