Support For Christi Thomas

This blog is to help offer support to the Thomas Family and their daughter, Christi, in her battle against cancer. Please visit Christi's website at www.ChristiThomas.com to learn more. There, you'll find journals, photos and a lots of other information about this amazing child and her family.

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Friday, September 14, 2007

One Year Ago & Two

Even though it's been almost one year, it's all still so very vivid. The bright and sunny Tuesday morning in September when Christi breathed her last breath and set out on a journey on which we could not accompany her. It seems at times that the pain is unbearable and overwhelming. We have learned never to set a timeline with how long it should take one to heal from the loss of a loved one. This is certainly taking a lot longer than we ever imagined. Just like a broken leg, a broken heart heals so slowly and cannot stand much at times. A lot that I've written on this blog has been written when I was in extreme agony. The sweet Christi supporters have sustained us and helped hold us up enough to support the heavy weight of life. For that, and for everything else, we will forever be grateful. (I've never shared these two pictures of Christi before. The first one she would really be mad at me for putting on here; however, it's a great reminder of the horror of cancer. Near the very end she spiked a fever that I believe went to 107. Nothing was given to her for it; she couldn't swallow. I took her clothes off to try to help her feel better even though she was miserable. I'll try instead to remember the bottom picture - THAT is how I want to remember Christi!)

Two Years Ago / One Year Before Death (September 2005) enjoying the family's cat after her horse riding lesson on their farm. As you can tell, she was delighted by this extra treat following something else she LOVED - horse riding lessons!

16 Comments:

At 14/9/07 8:17 AM, Blogger Kim said...

My heart just aches for you...You are right, there is no timeline for grief. And while it takes a long time for a broken heart to mend, the scar will always be there, I am sure! Your hearts will truly be healed when you are joined again one day with Christi!

Thank you again for sharing your story - Christi's story. You will never know how many lives yu and your amazing little girl have touched!

 
At 14/9/07 8:28 AM, Blogger Manda Panda said...

Dear Thomas Team,

Is it possible to ever completely heal after the loss of a loved one? I think we just learn to eventually somehow cope without them but the pain remains. Hearts heal so slowly, as you say, and someone as special as Christi will always be missed.

I follow your writings daily, Angela and am often reduced to tears by your pain. I came home to the UK after a year in Japan this time last year and vividly remember sobbing over your blog as Christi slipped away a bit more each day. She touched so many lives and continues to do so. We are all mourning your loss with you and want to ease your terrible pain burden.

Thinking of you often and especially over this sad time of year.

With much love
Amanda Gillies

 
At 14/9/07 8:53 AM, Blogger Vickie Buenger said...

Angela,

I am walking with you on this long walk. I wish I could carry more of the burden.

The photos didn't come through for me on Firefox or IE.

VB
erinbuenger.blogspot.com

 
At 14/9/07 9:10 AM, Blogger Steve said...

Unfortunately, the great internet "picture eater" has struck again. Any chance you can try to repost them, or even place some more picture on the main website?

 
At 14/9/07 9:23 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Christi is in our thoughts, daily; in our hearts, always; we are trying with might to hold you up as you struggle not to fall down in grief. Cancer stole Christi from this world, but it will never steal her from our souls.

Kam.

 
At 14/9/07 9:30 AM, Anonymous Broken Hearted said...

Until seeing the first picture, I could only try and imagine what was happening during Christi's final days.....and while I still can only imagine, I do see a glimce of the horror that went on. Oh dear Lord, Angela, I do not know how a mother goes on.....but she must! You are amazing. I pray that our Savior holds you close in the coming days, giving you the strength to do just that - go on......

I do not sign often because I am no good with words. (I do think of and pray for your family daily, though) I hope I have said things right......my heart breaks for you, Shayne and Shayla. May the Lord's peace be with you always.

 
At 14/9/07 11:04 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Try to stay through this time, i couldn't possibly imagine how you are feeling but my prayers and thoughts are with you.

(Some of the photos don't appear to be showing - including these two?)

 
At 14/9/07 11:48 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

The picture just brought me to tears. I am so sorry she indured so much.

 
At 14/9/07 11:52 AM, Blogger HeatherB said...

Thinking of you dear friends, holding you close in prayer and in my heart.

Lots of love and prayers,
Heather

 
At 14/9/07 1:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Praying for your entire family always but especially for some sort of comfort this coming week.

Phil, Tracey, Kayla and Josh.

 
At 14/9/07 2:15 PM, Blogger Lisa said...

My prayers are with you all. I'll check back later as for some reason no pictures are showing.It's so hard isn't it - every day we are alive is a day that brings us closer to seeing our loved ones again, but surely we must not wish away our lives because they are a gift - God sure did make things complicated! We have to trust him but sometimes it is hard. My prayers are with you all and thank you for allowing us all to share in your continuing journey.

 
At 14/9/07 4:58 PM, Anonymous Caroline said...

yikes, 107?! wow but i'm sure that was nothing compared to what Christi went through..i'm soo happy that I and other bloggers are able to make you feel better!! This might sound corny, but it makes me so happy knowing that your family is doing well! ohh and Angela we share a common interest... i'm thinking of majoring in elementary education in college!
best wishes,
Caroline

 
At 14/9/07 7:44 PM, Anonymous Brooke Cole said...

Sha-la-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la-la
You used to call me your Angel
Said I was sent straight down from Heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms
I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holdin' me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la-la-la-la
I miss you

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm livin' out my dream
Oh, how I wish you could see
Everything that's happenin' for me
I'm thinkin' back on the past
It's true the time is flyin' by too fast

I miss you I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
I miss you

I know you're in a better place yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you
Sha-la-la-la-la-la
I miss you
We LOVE and MISS you Christi!

 
At 14/9/07 8:43 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi I just wanted to say that I am thinking of you as the anniversary of Christi's death draws near. She will always be with you. I also wanted to mention that all of the pictures are corrupted or something because they are just x's. Praying for your family.

 
At 15/9/07 12:12 AM, Blogger Staci said...

I just wanted to let you know that Christi has been on my mind a lot this month...

In my prayers always

 
At 16/9/07 7:50 PM, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I too am holding you all up in my thoughts.

I think the picture problem in MSIE may be that the pictures names have + signs in them?

 

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